The undertow

No words that spill from your mouth
Could overcome the ringing in my ears
The blood is pounding in my temples
And it deafens me, engulfs my thoughts

After waiting and wishing for so many years
I have turned back the clocks
Trying to fill the hole that was left
But an empty heart could never fill one so pure

This was never my intention: A future not of my invention
This was never my intention: I feel it coming to a close

And now I've seen the end of all I've known
My chest is sinking like a stone
I'll wait for the numbness to set in
And hope I'll never feel again

It's getting harder to face the truth
But my frustration is fruitless
I can't decide for you. I can't decipher you

And as I'm getting older, I'm starting to believe
That there is nothing on this earth that measures up to what you need
When every future is a tempest in an unrelenting sea
And every consolation seems so hollow, it all seems so false to me

As the years keep slipping by
The voices racing through my head will always keep me up at night
From the ashes with these broken hands, I will rebuild my life
This time I won't look back
My heart was always in the right place

And now I've seen the end of all I've known
My chest is sinking like a stone
I'll wait for the numbness to set in
And hope I'll never feel

Again I find myself alone, and I just sink like a stone