Spread me all over illinois

Change holds me down to the places that I don't wanna be
When I wake up I look in the mirror and I see
The person that's been scaring me away from moving on
And getting out of my head
I had my nights in the same spot
That I told myself I would leave

I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left
I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past
Since loneliness will never leave my mind

I can't shake it off
Always a fight between my past, my head and my heart
You can cut me up and spread me all over illinois

I can't, I can't find myself
This loneliness will never leave my mind
I'm stuck and I feel like I'm the only one
I had my nights in the same spot that I told myself I would leave

I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left
I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past
Since loneliness will never leave my mind

Did I get left behind
Or is everybody else just hiding that they're lost?

Loneliness will never leave my mind
Loneliness will never leave my mind

Did I get behind
Or is everybody else just hiding under that they're lost?