Driven to destruction

I don't know where to begin
Feel a cleaving in my mind
I can't get my act together
Buzz in my head is too loud
I know something's wrong with me
It's starting to burn out my soul
But I feel so weird in here
When you just sit, listen and nod

All my life
I've been trying to deny and deceive myself

Sense of Insecurity
Restlessness
The turning out
Hatred for my inner chaos
And the color of your couch
I've just had this trouble all my life
Of getting out what is inside

Now I run
But cannot hide

No matter how much I do for them
No matter how much I do for myself
No matter which way I look at it
Fulfillment passes me by

Distracted inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way

Impatient inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way

Distracted inner self
I'm tuning out

Impatient inner self
I'm spacing out

Distracted inner self
On the brink of chaos
Lost its way