Blue and gray

I don't want to fight about who's pulling the weight / wait for me upstairs
I'll be up to rub your neck / I want to be let down and disenchanted / to walk through a cloud of disappointment - help me out /
I thought I escaped but the snakes still came / wrapped around my body tangled up in my ribcage / we just need to find songs we want to hear / the sounds been making my blue eyes go gray all these years
I'm suffocating now /
I overdosed somehow on my own medicine / I know all to well / the demons I can't handle / can hurt the ones I love / if I can hold them off, just long enough /
I'll get my mind straight / that ought to hold them off, just long enough / I'll push this down inside
I know if we'd never met I'd be dead by now / I've been fucked up - a nervous wreak as long as I can remember / but you write the story so pick up the pen / draw me pretty pictures of everything I hope to live
we grew up way too fast / forget about the past / nothing can change that now /
you'll learn to like the pain / and turn it into something / that everyone else can love / that ought to hold them off, just long enough /
I'll get my mind straight / that ought to hold them off, just long enough / I'll push this down inside