In for it now

i've been here for a while
tomorrow seems like yesterday
i wouldn't call it a state of denial
i forgot how to pray

i've been here for too long
i feel i've been defiled
would it be wrong to sing this song
too hard to reconcile

what is this life i live
i abuse the word 'forgive'
why did You put me here
if You would reign down tears

and the pressures building now
and i'm weighted to the ground
and these bricks i've laid by hand
and i'm in for it now

amazing grace how sweet the sound