Hate myself

Im seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold,
I cannot believe how much Ive changed since the days of old,
I know, its temporary but I need to focus straight,
I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,

I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about,
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I am gonna win, I cant afford to blow this one,
I hate myself sometimes,
I love myself,
I need this way of life because it holds me.
I hate myself sometimes,
I love myself,
Contradictions the way of life
Happiness is wealthyness is healthy now

Ive made it through those lies and deceit,
I think whats done is done and
I cant complain anymore
I am sure now that Ive found myself again it feels great

I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,
I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about,
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I am gonna win, I cant afford to blow this one,
I hate myself sometimes,
I love myself,
I need this way of life because it holds me.
I hate myself sometimes,
I love
Myself,
Contradictions the way of life
Happiness is wealthyness is healthy now
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