A step behind

It's not so much that you left
It's that you didn't come back
It's not the pain that you felt
But the obvious lack

I was always a step behind
I was always a step behind

It wasn't watching you go
But the way that you went
With a kiss on the cheek
And a cheque for the rent

I was always a step behind
I was always a step behind

It wasn't really your fault
Because you made it mine too
While you were looking around
I was looking at you

I was always a step behind
I was always a step behind

And I hope you remember
when it comes around
The gentle release
of letting me down

And the way that it felt
To be high on yourself
Blindly running into the new

I haven't re-learned to walk
It's hard to learn that
And it wasn't the fall
It was the push in the back

I was always a step behind
I was always a step behind
I didn't see it coming up
from behind
I was always a step behind