Fear of dying

what a day
felt so strange
couldn't sleep
couldn't breath
felt as if
i was sick
breathless
speechless
fear is in my heart
they tell me its my mind
i do not want to leave the world
i never wanna die
fear is in my-
they tell me its my-
i do not want to-
i never wanna-
but death will come to me
it comes to everybody
felt so sure
waiting for
ambulances
hospitals
i could not
even cry
fearing that i
i would die
fear is in my heart
they tell me its my mind
i do not want to leave the world
i never wanna die
fear is in my-
they tell me its my-
i do not want to-
i never wanna-
i am white
im transparent
my soul leaves me
i die