I haven't

Silent night and i'm in it once more
I haven't been for ages and it snows
This need that's manifested in my life
Makes me neglect it

This is the last one
How many times haven't i tried to pull that one
I haven't cried in a long time
I haven't
I haven't
I haven't
I haven't

Still night doing the best that i can
To amplify what's been diminished
Coat's on something to keep me warm
Heaven knows i've gone out