I'm ready, i am

I'm nicotine, I'm coming clean
I fooled the crowd when I made it seem like I was more than ready
Strike up the band, deprive my sleep
Cuz there's no love like apathy
The bell that tolls rings loud enough
That it should have woke us up

I'm tryin to find truth in words, in rhymes, and notes
In all the things I wish I wrote cuz
I feel like I've been losing you

I read your last entry
Overprivelidged kids keep crying
The need to fit in is harder when living life from a screen
Old classmates please drop all your pens
Don't write a word cuz I won't reply
And I'm not bitter, no
I'ts just I've past that point in my life

I'm tryin to find truth in words, in rhymes, and notes
In all the things I wish I wrote cuz
I feel like I've been losing you

Each night it ends too soon
You don't hold me like you used to
And your eyes look like they've seen too much
It's always some excuse
Too tired too obtuse
You look so far removed
This time I fear I'm losing losing you

I'm nicotine, I'm a cash machine
I'm the color green
And you should have seen the looks I just received

I need a reason to let go
An intervention a lullaby
Something to cure me please believe me

I'm tryin to find truth in words, in rhymes, and notes
In all the things I wish I wrote cuz
I feel like I've been losing you

Each night it ends too soon
You don't hold me like you used to
And your eyes look like they've seen too much
It's always some excuse
Too tired too obtuse
You look so far removed
This time I fear I'm losing losing you