Personal exile

I promise to you
Never to live the way I have
Contradicting, everything
The life of a fool
The kin I bear
Belongs not to me
To that of a liar
A thief
A coward
Destroy me, let nothing be
Place me, where I cannot see
Feel the soil over my head
This skin belongs not to me
Life, is very long, when alone
But when am I not?
Nothing more, there will never be more
Feel the soil, cover my eyes