What ever

Disaster strikes, I tried to write
Describe the things I hold inside
But this pride of mine still keeps me distant

Disorder looms above this rooms
I`m trapped inside this silent tomb
I`m trapped again by my own resistance

What ever I say
What ever I write
What ever I do
I'm not getting through - to you

Destruction zone surrounds my home
The future seems to stay unkonwn
All alone in need of some assistance

Here comes the fear again
The walls are closing in
Feels like I`m choking
Can`t find the words to say
I`m drowning in despair
And the smoke fills the air