Holding on to my pain

This will be the day that
I will close my eyes and ears
From the evil of the world

These are my last hours
Before I will let it go
I'm so close yet so far

One step behind, one more to go
I'm almost there
I'm still alive and grinding on
I still believe

Days go by
And I'm holding on to my pain
Keeping my eyes away
From what makes me weak, fragile and small

This is my time, I own it
Until I crash and fall
I'm keeping it all inside

I am in control
Or that's what I keep on saving
I am a wreck, am I alive?

One step behind, one more to go
I'm almost there
I'm still alive and grinding on
I still believe

Days go by
And I'm holding on to my pain
Keeping my eyes away
From what makes me weak, fragile and small