Happy with my pain

I know what you did to me, and I don`t accept apologies.
I guess you had your reasons but I`m never gonna know.
We both knew it wouldn`t last, but now it`s over way too fast.
What I lack in motivation I make up for in denial.

Take your hatred out on me, `cause I`m used to live with misery.
I don`t care what you call me, as long as you still call me.
I face my demons every day and I wish that they would go away.
While part of me is dying, I`m happy with my pain.

This was just a game for you and I wish i felt the same way to.
I cannot keep from wondering if I`m ever gonna learn.
It seems that I have lost the game, and I`ve only got myself to blame.
Life is complicated and I`m not the brightest guy.

Would you excuse me please, I have a life to live.
I guess I`m gonna make, the same mistakes again.