Waiting and wandering

It`s all in me like an aching lump
A cancer growing into a beast
Distorting truth and feeding lies
Like sun and water to faded plant

Sometimes I long for the misery
Sometimes I crawl through the mud
Silly games to feel left behind
Masturbation in agony

Waiting and wandering x2

Take a look at myself as a victim
It`s hard not to laugh in despice
Why do I do the things I do
I hate myself and i want to

Waiting and wandering x4