Damn spotlight (julia's song)

If tomorrow I could just wake up beside you
See the morning sunlight spill across your face
Through the window that looks out on our front porch
Where I can hear the bare feet of our children play
Well that might be a place I'd like to stay

If I could buy a boat I'd cross an ocean
But I ain't got enough to buy a clue
So I lie here on the floor
And hand myself a couple more
And I wonder how I'll make it back to you
And the truth is love, that's all I ever do

Oh but I'll paint on a smile
And I'll pretend that it's alright
And die a little more underneath this damn spotlight
Tell myself this time round I'll get it right
That's a lie that I tell myself to just get by

I know you got boys sleeping there beside you
Both with curly hair and eyes so blue
I know it's hard after awhile
But I miss every smile
Finally I realize the truth
And the only good thing I ever did to you

Oh but I'll paint on a smile
And I'll pretend that it's alright
And die a little more underneath this damn spotlight
Tell myself this time round I'll get it right
That's a lie that I tell myself to just get by

Oh but I'll paint on a smile
And I'll pretend that it's alright
And die a little more underneath this damn spotlight
Tell myself this time round I'll get it right
But that's a lie that I tell myself to just get by