Stay gold pony boy

I saw you you scream for your last breath,
I never knew it was this hard to stay awake,
My eyes are open but they're getting heavy,
Please forgive my mistakes I'm coming home to you,
All i did was take the pain away,
I was only playing doctor baby,
I can see you in the back of my mind,
Fighting so hard to keep your life,
And it only reminds me how mine,
Is slipping away as your did when i took your life,
I can see you in the back of my mind,
So cut this noose off from my neck,
And tell me this is not,
The end,
So we,
We can go on just pretending,
With that smile of mine,
While your tears fall from your eyes,
Grasping your heart with your eyes rolled back in fear,
I'll take you home but you'll fucking end here,
Sit down have a drink,
Just relax baby,
I never knew this would come back to haunt me,
is it Worth it All my curses?
Just riddle me this,
Before i fade away from white to gray,
I Feel like nothing please tell me that im okay,
Before i fade away.