Despise me

I didn't promise a thing
I have my own reasons
you have no right to ask why
don't ask why I wanna die
you can never understand
my sick reality
some day you will hate me
what can I do
it's me

I don't know what happens to me
I don't care I don't give a shit
nobody hears my voice
I shout it I can't hear it

who am I
inside I'm dead

you have seen who I really am
you want to despise me

tearing my heart
being so soft
I'm a mistake
I wanna die