Better living through denial

I'm lying to myself. Assuming that I had your heart.
And I wish I had the courage to say....

That it's alright, it's okay. You're not special anyway.
I'm not scared, I won't cry. I don't need you here tonight.

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But it always hurts so much. Everytime you walk away from me.
And I don't know why I sit here patiently Waiting here...
...For a love I'll never know.

I'm crying to myself. Cuz I know you're no longer mine.
And now since I've been on my own I can't say....

That I'm alright, I'm okay. I don't miss you anyway.
It didn't hurt, I didn't die, when you ran out of my life.