When ends never meet

Do this do that all of the things I've done right now
They don't seem to matter at all
What was once the biggest part of my life is all gone
Except the feeling of being let down
Learn your lesson when will you ever learn
You own obsession's what you're dealing with here
But if things would have gone the way I wanted them to
Then I would never even be here at all

Can you feel the pain that I feel - I can't let go
Telling me about what is real
You think you'll get it all you think you've got it all
And then you lose it all again
Can you see the things the way that I see - I know you can't
Not sure about how to be
They will always be there I wanna break away
And make it through another day
When ends never meet

Too much too fast too soon and too little
Still it feels like I've missed out on it all
When I was there all that I wanted was to get away
Now that it's over all I feel is regret
Learn your lesson when will you ever learn
You own obsession's what you're dealing with here
Are you telling me that it ain't getting better than this?
I embraced my ends but couldn't hold on