This is where we meet

There is nothing i can ever do to make myself appear like i have it all together.
I’ll watch myself crumble. every time i try it gets harder to get it right.
Good motives i have kissed goodbye to sell the product not the life.

You still see me as a fallen entity, grasping what i can’t attain by myself,
It’s all on display. give me a second try that i don’t deserve,
Failing is part of my life but it’s what i choose.
Do i want to make things right or get caught up in the spiral that tears my life apart?

Not on my own i’ll give up every time.
I am so frail, progress is hard to find.
I can’t remain in this state where i fall away,
It’s haunting, it’s blaming, it crushes me.
Can i be restored? where i don’t hurt?
Where mistakes are forgotten?
Given a second try to make things right?

I’m breaking down, is this my fate?
You have held me up for so long but still i disappoint.
Your love never fails it’s my choice
That comes between all you have planned for me.

Forgive my failures they are too much to take on,
Too much to swallow. i can’t stand on my own,
I will always fall. i can’t do this alone,
A never ending cycle that causes me to stumble and give up what i long for.
I don’t deserve to make this right, i failed, i lost, this is where we meet.