Grapefruit

Hey, holy ghost, why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
I know we ain't spoke in so long, but I've gotta know, if I'm alone
If I start drinking, I'm gonna be the town drunk
You always said I should lighten up
I'm gonna lighten up. I'm gonna lighten up

So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone
So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you you'd want
If I cant make you love me

I shut you out
After the funeral, mired in doubt
You thought a family would help
I was struggling. You could tell
When we got the news
That you were pregnant
We painted a room
Pink and orange like a grapefruit
I know how bad you wanted this too
I know it killed you

In all my dreams, I'm in the house that I grew up in
I'm trying to be half the man I know my dad is, or was
I see me as a father looking over a daughter
Who grew up to be just like you
And now, that's just a thread I can't hold onto
It's just an open wound

So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone
So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you'd want
If I cant make you love me

Hey, holy ghost
Why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
Right when I fucking need you
I'm all alone. I'm all alone

So, I'll start drinking
Yeah, I'll be the town drunk
I'll be a burden on everyone