The earth fall sleep

Can anyone tell me how, how we learn to live with ourselves
I’ve been forgiven, things only god knows
But I can’t forgive myself
And after all my searching I found who I am and it’s not what I wanted
But I’m here now and I'm broken come save me from this hell

The earth falls asleep much too early for me
I close my eyes but I can’t rest, my body is tired
My mind is running from the past to the east to the west
Trying to find the blame you’ve already taken from me

Can anyone tell me how, how we learn to live with ourselves
I’ve been forgiven things only god knows
But I can’t forgive myself
And after all of my searching I found who I am and it’s not what I wanted
But I’m here now and I’m broken come save me from this hell

I’m convinced that the world that we see is a curtain, behind which vast realms await us
Of uncharted marvels in oceans of mercy inside my father’s eyes
And the mountains are grand stands that sheets of blue skies rest upon
Pealed back with ease by yours hands to reveal a glory I’ve never dreamed

Can anyone tell me how, how we learn to live with ourselves
I’ve been forgiven, things only god knows but I can’t forgive myself
After all of my searching I found who I am and it’s not what I wanted
But I’m here now and I’m broken…
I want to pay for the things I’ve done
The people I’ve hurt, get what I deserve
But you won’t let me, no, you won’t let me
My hope is in the unseen
My hope is in the unseen cause I see no hope in me