Too late for amends

I spent the last five years pushing everyone away
I think I'm sorry is in order but I don't know what to say
I never thought you shared the blame for all the years I've spent alone
I always proudly stood and claimed that I'm the reason that you're gone

Don't let me go unchecked any longer
For all the failures that I've made
I know the things I did, how I was wrong
And I've got no excuses left to blame, just apologies to make

I've spent 23 years being told that I was wrong
And I'm not sure who I am when that's all that I have known
I never thought you should have kept me any closer than you did
Just know I always had my reasons for not letting you in

Don't let me go unchecked any long
For all the failures that I've made
I know the things I did, how I was wrong
And I've got no excuses left to blame, just apologies to make

Like how I know that I was wrong and I never said anything less
My words are worthless now but I swear to God I tried my best
I'll never hate you when you leave ‘cause after all it's al my fault
It's taken way too far to see what you've been sure of all along

Don't let me go unchecked any long
For all the failures that I've made
I know the things I said, how I was wrong
And I've got no excuses left to blame, just apologies to make