Obliteration of the self

When desperation engulfs you
Life grinds to a halt
Abandon all hope for recovery
Throw another shovel on the pile
Last gasp to retain coherency
Glimpses of truth through a broken mind
Through punctured I eyes I reflect on this
A decline into endless repetition
Deterring me
One step from destruction
The final word will be mine
As the bullet tears through me
And the bloodletting begins
Tear me down
End it now