A last kiss before

It seems the sun
doesn't wanna shine today,
birds won't sing,
Everything is grey.
I'm ready to see you
one last time,
I can't remember bad memories,
only the good ones remain.
In this big box
I had to choose,
a fixed smile
as you're stretching in.
Is it a joke?
What was your last thought ?
Your heart was more frail
than a dead leaf.
A last kiss before
you are locked up,
you're so cold,
colder than this winter.
I hate these substances
that helped you to go,
this smoke you
couldn't stop loving,
these drinks too.
You shouldn't have know
death is selfish,
she never cares about your children,
she backstabs you,
with no regrets.
Father - Don't leave me alone.
Father - You're too young to die.
Father - Don't leave me alone.
Father - I can't realize.