Stainedglass expectations

Colored shards rain down like misguided confetti
How can something so beautiful cause so much dismay
Blood drops exclaim their existence
Running hand-in-hand with unending pain
(Chorus:)
I can
Do this alone
But why
Would I want to
My hands
Bleed all day long
My mind
Knows I could never reach you

I've sacrificed friendships, dismembered family
through everything I gained I threw my world away
What cost is worth your existance
When everyone you know has gone away?

(Chorus)

Here I stand broken-hand-anger management
I threw my life away throw everything away
This time I die to fight I'll reside under twilight
I threw my life away throw everything away