Scare myself

You're sick of me and no one else
I must agree I scare myself
Can you explain why this must be like pulling teeth
I guard my secret from you
Dirty and hideous
Burning scarred by the truth
Unbearable
The gods they smile down on you
Wings of perfect apathy
Banished serpent am I
Child of perfect neglect
I arrive in agony
Recoil at my touch
Don't look at me
Your distance keeps you safe
Conscience your enemy
With mercy on your lips
You're sick of me and no one else
I must admit I hate myself
Can you explain why you and me