Paranoiacs song

I wanted to write this paranoiac song so bad
but I didn't succeed
pushed myself on the edge then I turned down
that's where I fell on my knees
walked days and days not remembering my name
I swear this song is much to deep
suddenly I saw this person that showed me the way
for more joy did I weep

BUT NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND YOU THERE'S STILL HOPE
NOW I'LL TAKE THE RIGHT DOOR SO I CAN COPE

I wanted to walk like jesus christ so bad
but I didn't succeed
pulled my heart out and never put it back
that's why I so bleed
you could say sometimes I cross the line
once for selfishness once for greed
until that day that I found your odor passing me
following hours of the deed

BUT NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND YOU THERE'S STILL HOPE
NOW I'LL TAKE THE RIGHT DOOR SO I CAN COPE

I wanted to die like the lizard king so bad, but I didn't succeed
took all the dope I found and squeezed it all at once so I lost all my heat
then watched the mirror for a whole week long, I couldn't breath

BUT NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND YOU THERE'S STILL HOPE
NOW I'LL TAKE THE RIGHT DOOR SO I CAN COPE