She

She swore she not love me,
But her made me smile.
Not always she was alive,
But i'm too blame for her having been here.

She was always guilty,
But was i who acted wrongly.
She knows that i'm not innocent,
And that was my worst mistake.

Could live without it,
But this hurt is real.
I don't understand it,
But it's what i feel.
I know you told me that,
It would live only once.
For in the truth it already,
Would be enough.

I would change for her,
But i've to take it from me.
I built a world for her,
But she's not here. [ Anymore ]

She is real,
But my faith has run.
But i don't wanna to leave,
Without take what she left.

Could live without it,
But this hurt is real.
I don't understand it,
But it's what i feel.
I know you told me that,
It would live only once.
For in the truth it already,
Would be enough.

But it seems that she doesn't know my rules.
And this seems have left her happy.
She seemed to be innocent, seemed to be what i wanted most.
But it was all a camouflage, and was she who let those wounds.

I wanted not just be your friend,
But today i wants to leave.
And i had to kill her,
For she be ripped out of me.
I wanted not just be your friend,
But today i wants to leave.
Finally i killed her,
She finally was ripped out of me.

But it seems this is not enough,
I still feel that she is here.
I can't tell who is guilty,
In fact the problem was always me.
I see the time will not be enough to choke this hurt who only growing.
What i feel is a great void, But to a certain time was different.

It show how much things change,
And is inevitable happens the opposite.
In the fact already gotten used it,
And again i see that my fate was always without her.
But nothing is as before,
And want to relive it would be a mistake.
I know that i will not go back,
Because my fate was always without her.

She isn't here.
She isn't real,
I can't make her real.