Down

Creeping on the floor
I clench my fists so hard
That nails cut in the flesh
And skin turns white to red

Crouching on my knees
Until they start to bleed
Whole body is a wound
Can't get up on my feet

What have I become?
Where have I been stuck?
Everything went wrong
I missed a stroke of luck

I try to stand up desperately
But I'm nailed down to the ground
Inspite of all my searching
I can see no way out

Lead flows through my veins
Feel heavy as a rock
A millstone lain around my neck
Heaven's door is locked

What have I become?
Where have I been stuck?
Everything went wrong
I missed a stroke of luck