Blessing or curse

So sorry
For what I have in me
Striving
For what it takes for this

In the limit to make a choice
Can't see the possibilities
(There is nothing!)
Giving up, not always easy
But sometimes's necessary
(There's no way out!)

I don't know where it will take me
Just know where I want to get

How many do I have to kill?
Who do I have to know?
What do I have to pay
To make you see what I have to show?

Is this the right time and place
Or luck is all that matters
(Is it worth it?)
Fighting counter interests
Just with my pride and talent
(What will be left?)

I don't know where it will take me
Just know where I want to get

How many do I have to kill?
Who do I have to know?
What do I have to pay
To make you see what I have to show?

So sorry
It's what I have in me
Striving
It's what it takes for this

How many do I have to kill?
Who do I have to know?
What do I have to pay
To make you see what I have to show?