One word too much

I had the chance but I
threw it all away
I could have coloured my life
but I´ve chosen grey
if I only could stop time or just talk it away
but every other word is one word too much...
if I could only show you
how much I care
if I could only make you
believe what I said
it all seems so stupid to me, now I can see
but every other word is one word too much...
so many times I´ve tried
to get rid of you
so many times I`ve felt like
I won´t get through
and wonder if you feel the same, but what should I say
`cause every other word is one word too much...