The mistress

Hello, it's me the mistress, is there anybody home?
'Cause, the last place I should be is, sittin' here all alone
All I ask for is forgiveness, if you've got some, give it here
You don't act much like you need it, you don't look much like you care

And will you need me in the summer, will you need me in the spring
I believe my life is ending, I don't know where to begin
I've got a page in my back pocket, of the seven deadly sins
And it's draggin' me around, among the needles and the pins

And I don't need to take a breather, I'm on the outside lookin' out
Yeah I don't need to see your papers, 'cause I know what you're about
You had me by the Bible, and you had me by the belt
And you had me from the instant my cold love began to melt

And then you praise me for my inspiration, asked me for an explanation
Followed up with hesitation, fit my primal expectation
I don't care but I don't mind, you can call me anytime
You can holler through the fortress, kick me out on line

I don't expect it from the grief that gathers in my head
I like suspended disbelief, I like to spend the day in bed
I like to spend the nights in Heaven, hangin' with the dead
With Judas and his women, and the voices in my head

I've got my eyes upon the mirror, got my hands up in the air
I confess to my distress, yeah I get crazier each year
And I'd change it if I could, you know that I like to say that I would
But there's a war between the parts of me, the evil and the good

And you try and stop me I'm on fire, although it doesn't look that way
You know I used to be a liar and the livin' set me straight
But I don't come with no disclaimer, I'm like everybody else
We keep our demons on the burner and our morals on the shelf

And nobody asks for my opinion just because you don't want to hear it
I swear I'm only human wishing I could disappear
You must think it's an illusion, that I like to live in fear
Of a probable solution, why the Devil put me here

And now no judgment court will kill me, just makes me close my eyes
And I sink into the slumber, to the prison of my mind
Where I'd love to introduce you if you found a way inside
You could sell me retribution, and totally demystify 'em

'Til I wonder how I got here, until I don't know who to be
Is it better to be grounded, is it better to be free
Am I better off without you, am I happier alone
Hello it's me the mistress, could you please pick up the phone