I hope life isn't a big joke, because i don't get it

I never thought
I'd feel like this,
I hope you die
You fucking bitch,
'cause after all the stuff you said,
You're not the one who lies down dead.

All i built for us,
There is nothing left,
You spilled my guts,
I lost my head.

You fucked me real good,
You messed me up pretty fine,
So i hope you understood to never look me in the eye. (x2)

Whore,
Now i'm gonna make you regret about everything you said.

You fucked me real good,
You messed me up pretty fine,
So i hope you understood to never look me in the eye. (x2)

Forgiving and gaining my trust again,
Are not the same thing.

All i can say is that you won't be missed.

You torn my hearts into pieces,
And that is what hurts the most,
Your sanity and your treason leeches,
And so to you i'll raise a toast.

And maybe to your eyes,
That's just what i deserve,
Now if look back to your lies,
I hope your conscience burns.

Leave me to my loneliness,
And walk the path you found for you.