Swan song

I saw a woman running up the stairs of Casa Loma,
Looked at her determined face, hoping she could win this race,
I know exactly how she feels, I feel it all the time,
Running nowhere, running nowhere.

I have a certain staircase of my own, it seems to follow me around,
And every time I fall it kicks me when I'm down,
It doesn't have an ending I'm convinced I should ignore it,
But every now and then I take a step I just can't help it.

And, oh, I crave the momentary win,
Oh, foolishly again.

But if this is my last chance, if I've done it all wrong,
If I've been a joker all this time and here's my swan song,
I won't be the one to cool the torch, won't be the one to swim to shore,
You won't find me saying I could have done, I could have done more,
If I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.
Yeah if I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.

There's something in that inconsistent pace that starts a rhythm,
The illusion of control is why we chase and never give in,
Relief will come so seldom to the ones who can't rest easy,
And I stand in between, my staircase and what pleases me.

Most, I've always been a different girl,
Oh, stuck between two worlds.

But if this is my last chance, if I've done it all wrong,
If I've been a joker all this time and here's my swan song,
I won't be the one to cool the torch, won't be the one to swim to shore,
You won't find me saying I could have done, I could have done more,
If I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.
Yeah if I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.

There is rumbling from the ground and a calling from the staircase,
I am taken by the sound, of others in the same place,
Who are asking themselves, where they ought to be,
And when the woman running by, stops to get some water,
I can see it in her eyes, she's fully in her power,
And I know for sure, there is one more, step for me.

'Cause if this is my last chance, if I've done it all wrong,
If I've been a joker all this time and here's my swan song,
I won't be the one to cool the torch, won't be the one to swim to shore,
You won't find me saying I could have done, I could have done more,
If I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.
Yeah if I'm going down, I'm going down swinging.