Descending in cruelty

So close,
Trying to awake makes you fall deeper and deeper
In misery, grief, sorrow,

Now the real cruelty begins
Fallen, into sadness
Ghastly dream arisen
Graceful pain, again and again

Everything precious died
Through the aeons I fly
All I can see
I am still my own undying enemy

Through the night so divine
I spread my wing and fly, tonight
Emptiness fulfilling the space
Dimensional breaking through my mind
Lost in the depths of me
Anguish is raising I sense
Descending in cruelty
Beyond the reaches of the end

Looking the ruins of the throne
I've been praying all along
Pain, sadness surrounding my eyes
I am fading, I'm alone

Losing control, losing my soul
Piercing madness, insanity rules
Completion, undone
At the end always remains darkness

I am the one who see what others can not
For them, trying to help me, to my selfish mind,
The refusal is not from my own
I felt in cruelty and I'm falling on and on