Now i know

I let you down, screwed up again,
Couldn't hold out until the bitter end
This time i really thought i'd be fine
One more chance for me to make up my mind
I didn't try because i didn't care
Missed opportunities all were there
I knew it all but i just couldn't see
Let down is all i know and all i'll be
Why do i listen to what they say?
When nothing ever goes my way
I see the fiction before the fact
Now i know there's no turning back
Now i know, now i see
But is it too late for me?
I never wanted to captain the side
Won't be the medal you wear with pride
So many things that you can't have
So many ways for me to make you sad
I don't care about the words you said
I've forgotten wishing i was dead
The time has come to make my own way
Failure is a word i still won't pay