The stain of life

This pace of life is controlling me
I've severed ties with reality
Sitting out of life and feeling cold
Detached emotions, breaking from the fold
Will they leave me here, can't carry on I fear
Won't they pull me out from this life I doubt

Don't wanna fall but it's getting deeper
I can't climb out and I'm getting deeper
Won't colors touch me like in the past
The stain of life is fading fast

Can I be direct and to the point
Some friends have gone and I've wished to join
I wonder will they be here with me
Or risen bright and forgotten me
Will you return, won't you help me to learn
Please help me to return, won't you stop my burn

I've severed ties with reality
Sitting out of life and feeling cold
Won't they pull me out of this life I doubt

Don't wanna fall but it's getting deeper
I can't climb out and I'm getting deeper
Won't colors touch me like in the past
The stain of life is fading fast

Are these words becoming truths
The molding holds it all inside
Still I live in fear, though I see and hear
Falling off the chair, this static life I am aware