Wide awake

When the truth came out
All the answers left me wide awake
The words you said
Will not be written down
I accept your choices
Still the reason leaves me wide awake
Why did you wait?

I have always been
A closed novel
And I’m a coward avoiding the fight
But presently my will grew stronger

I’ve found a way to speak my mind
With time the clouds get darker
All these thoughts are in my way
I keep trying to take it back
In your eyes it’s too late

There’s so much I need to tell you
There’s so much you need to know
There’s a reason for my absence

I can not seem to let go
Why am I even trying?
Let me be your anchor
Leave the rest to me