On my heels

I wish I would've said it
Just cleared the air
I was so scared to break you
But too blind to care

I painted me wiser
And covered my eyes
Shrouded in shame
Proud of my pain
Layered with lies

The tears that dried and stained our skin
The cracks that grew and spread us thin

The pace at which I run from it
The memories I can't stomach
The harm that I've done
The shell I've become
The beast that stays on my heels
Reminder that's all too real
Of harm that I've done
Of what I've become

This wasn't what I wanted
Or what you deserved
And I was so sure I could fix it
Before you returned
But with bricks and mortar
We sealed our borders off

The tears that dried and stained our skin
The empty room where love had been

The pace at which I run from it
The memories I can't stomach
The harm that I've done
The shell I've become
The beast that stays on my heels
Reminder that's all too real
Of harm that I've done
Of what I've become

Sunken and slow
You turn your eyes away from me
You're moving off
It's all wrong
No, it's all wrong

Sunken and slow
You turn your eyes away from here
Fought for so long
It's all wrong
No, it's all wrong

Sunken and slow
You turn your eyes away from here
Fought for so long
It's all wrong
No, it's all wrong

Sunken and slow
You turn your eyes away from here
Fought for so long
It's all wrong
No, it's all wrong

The pace at which I run from it
The memories I can't stomach
The harm that I've done
The shell I've become