Falling

Again i shake,
fighting these sick feelings.
i don't understand.
why i've allowed these weaknesses,
these feelings, this confusement...
I'm so lonely and alone
yet i never felt so alive.
the suicidal thoughts that haunt me
are leaving me and opening up my eyes.
Another tear,
as my feelings fluctuate,
i discriminate myself,
for a feeling i know i can't control.
i'm falling...
There's something 'bout your smile.
i know i can't explain.
you're eyes tell me secrets.
where no lies can ever be.
I'm not lonely or alone
and i never felt so alive.
the suicidal thoughts that haunt me
are leaving me and you've opened up my eyes.
can you remember?
when i said i'm scared of you
that's because
i now know i can move on