Always behind a smile

Ten years and you're back again
but i don't want to go back to this
these kids were not my friends
high school memories just like a kiss
forget how they laughed
forget how i cried
forget everything
forget how i lied to myself
just like a kiss
and I can't forget how it was
just like a kiss
and i can't forget my discomfort
I'll never forget hiding behind this smile
I never intended to let them see me while i was afraid
always hiding behind something
that something's changing all the time
it seems i'm crying about nothing
or maybe it's something i kept inside of myself