I will lie

I opened up my mouth, i opened it up way too wide.
There such a hole that some of my soul slipped on outside.
And now there's nowhere to hide
I see that look in your eye.
As i try to shove it back, shove it back, back inside.

I will lie to you until i believe and
I will lie until it's all there will be.
And i'll pretend until it fits like a second skin.
And i'll reply each time this is how it's always been.
And i will lie to you until i believe, i will lie until the lie is me.

Out of control my soul my soul, i let it run out from within.
There such a mess while i deconstruct, reconstruct, start again.
Defective and disfigured and now you even know my name.
As i try to keep it up, keep it up, play the game.

I cry, i cry for the part i know i will never have again.
I try, i try over and over again to stand true to the lie.