Insecurity secured

Victimized, paralyzed, by the thoughts you seem moralize and consent
Whose thoughts are we here to prevent?

Oh, I try so hard yet it won't help me
My lies within me like one ton sunken concrete
Happiness just isn't a part of me
Is flattering myself just cheap activity?

Shallow lies, indiscrete adversitiles
Say am I what I am?
Compensate my missing self-respect with flaws
Do I hate what I hate?
I will have to swallow my pride
I am what I perpetrate?
Redraw my fault!
Say am I what I am?
Consistent cries, directly demoralize
Do I hate what I hate?
The core emptiness of my heart
I am what I perpetrate?

Results in insecurity
Just can't erase it away
See my eyes
It's myself I despise

Is this a serious case of bad karma?
You think I'm not that kind (oh you wish)
Am I in control of my sordid little brain?
Determine if I'm dumb or insane

Shallow lies, indiscrete adversitiles
Say am I what I am?
Compensate my missing self-respect with flaws
Do I hate what I hate?
I will have to swallow my pride
I am what I perpetrate?
Redraw my fault!
Say am I what I am?
Consistent cries, directly demoralize
Do I hate what I hate?
The core emptiness of my heart
I am what I perpetrate?

Results in insecurity
Just can't erase it away
See my eyes
It's myself I despise