My lord

My Christ I don't believe in you,
But if I did would you stop me from thinking?
I've got things on my mind, things what you would not understand.
I've got things on my mind, things that need to be forgotten.
I've got things on my mind, that'll stop you sleeping.
I'm not trying, to upset you now,
But you're the one who wanted to move on.
I'm not trying to destroy you with this,
I am destroying you with this.
My lord don't stop me now,
Even if I believed, you couldn't stop me now.
This is all I know.
My lord, don't stop me now,
Even if I believed you couldn't stop me now.
When lord, when will you show me the light?
All I need is to see your light.
I'm not trying, to upset you now,
But you're the one who wanted to move on.
I'm not trying to destroy you with this,
I am destroying you with this.
My god, I believe I have found you,
And you don't understand,
And you won't for as long as I am here.
But you're trying for me you're trying for me.
If I stop believing in god, don't you give up on me.
Because this is harder than I'm showing it to be,
When I take my brave face off, don't you give up on me.
My god, the way I found you,
With my words in my hands.
But you stood by me,
Gave me the courage to take on the world.
My lord, I don't believe in you,
But if I did would you show me the light?
My lord, don't stop me now,
Even if I believed, you couldn't stop me now.