The apprentice

If I could I’d try hard to survive
Inside this side o’ my life I’m surprised
Since I entered the skies in your eyes
Silencing the sighs within my spine

God, I’m deranged and I feel so mistaken
God, I’m insane and I feel so awaken
If I could I’d change and be so nice
Instead I’m sincerely mystified
Without a place to hide all my might
Begging for a swift and sweet reply

God, I’m deranged and I feel so mistaken
God, I’m insane and I feel so awaken
I’m an apprentice, I’m learning to fly
I’m swinging between the hurt and the lies
‘Cause I’m an apprentice, I’ve studied both sides
Inspired to live but yearning to die
I’m yearning to die