Challenges of a goal

I feel as if it had lost something that I never had
The rage takes care of me without having an only reason at least
I feel as if it had changed
I notice like this that the things more nape will be the same ones
My life way changes suddenly
And nor I feel the rain drops that fall in my body
I feel insecure more nor I have with what to worry
Because I don't still have anything
Anything I belong
I am completely alone in this place
The shade and the darkness pursue me side by side
My desire at this time would be to disappear in subject of seconds
So that it never again returns to this place
At this time raisin for my head the worst possible feelings
And even the impossible
I see that cannot really trust in anything and nor in anybody
Because the situations can always change everything and all
Being my life would give like this never right
I would not have forces to struggle
Enemies are always in my road
This that I cannot trace without challenges walk
And the challenges that strengthen me more and more
Therefore I am in a gloomy place, emptiness and sad
At the same time I always have forces for struggling
It is never to give up my main goal: to live
And it is for my true spirits that I look for this goal
Spirits that actually don't belong me
But they are them the only reasons of my existence
Without them I would not be really anything