A letter from prison

Sometimes I wonder. Torn between my heart,
tore between my heart and my mind
And I feel my body to see if I'm in,
If I'm in tune with what I find
But I don't know how to feel
And I don't know what to feel
Anymore

Anymore

Wanna be the decision cision
Kill free things I feel a difference inside
I'm a boy who's so sick of searching
Maybe there's a heaven nearby
So should I let these thoughts out
Or should I let you in
Its so easy to be alone
Who put in will I find home
I just don't know
How to feel

Feel
How to feel
How to feel
Feel

Feeling so afraid like I am stuck here
Like I am stuck here and can't move
I like to watch the sunsets lighting the warm colours
The warmth it blinds the truth
But I don't know how to feel
And I don't know what to feel
Anymore

I keep on hurting myself
Tearing off the skin I let it burn in the dirt
What I learned what I've learned
Though it may be the truth, truth it hurts
When we have something inside that no motherfucker will touch
No I won't think like you
If I did what am I trying to prove
I just don't know
I just don't know
I just don't know
I just don't know
I just don't know how to feel
I just don't know what to feel
Anymore