Self destruction is my middle name

i want to live in black and white
but nothing ever goes right.
i want my goals to be in sight
but if i want it, i have to fight

i wish that i could be alone
long enough to find some hope
i wish i could learn to love myself
and if i do i cant have any help

pulling names out of a hat
sucking blood out of a bat
pulling names out of a hat
sucking blood out of a bat

tell us all how it feels
to move so much
while standing still
tell us all whats it like
to love so much
but hate your life

i want to break away and leave
and find some time to finally breathe
i want to love enough to believe
that this life i live is a dream

i wish i that everyone could see
that no ones ever believed in me
i wish someday that i will be
happy and finally free